I want to be that bird

It’s almost dawn when you stretch your muscles, about to turn to the other side of the bed. Suddenly your consious comes back to you, in a better feeling than it was yester night. You hear the birds singing different songs. It is as if they are calling you to come out and see the beautiful day.

As you open your eyes slightly, bright rays of the sun hit your face and put a smile on your lips. You throw your blankets aside and walk towards the window to draw the curtains. Mesmerised by the glowing dew on the green grass outside your bedroom window, you take a deep breath and open the window. The air is so fresh you don’t want to think about the hustle of the day.

Further away, the trees look so calm you would envy their kind of peace. The sky so bright, it never got any brighter. The sun, like a yellow sizzling ball,  spreading it’s light in beautiful rays. Ohhh how beautiful could nature be.

The birds up in their ussual frenzy, building their new nests. They look so happy you have no idea how they manage to stay so brilliant. Some go to fetch food for their young ones. And you begin to realise that there is a tougher day ahead. You have to work extra hard so as to get that which you want. You have to cross paths with several people, at times step on their feet to get what you want. You never have an assurance of how the end of the day shall be.

This very moment, you wish you were that weaver bird. Living today like you have no idea that tomorrow exists. Being happy every other minute. Enjoying the company of your fellows and living together as a family. You wish you could be that bird, that knows no struggle, knows no hustle, and cares less about anything. You just want to be that bird in the sky.

Am sorry I never told you

I always wanted to let you know that I cared. I wanted you to know that I was willing to fight for you. I always wanted to pick up my phone, call you, and ask you to come hang out with me. I always wanted to have you next to me.

Remember that day when we coincidentally walked into each other?  My eyes were red and my face was swollen. I wanted to tell you that I had been missing you. I wanted you to hold me tight. And you did just that. As you patted my shoulder and said that everything was gonna be fine, I wanted you to stay with me.

Then you walked away to go be by your girls.  To go get a drink or two with your crew. I wished I had told you that I truly cared for you before you left. Because that pat on my shoulder was the last feeling you left me with. I hang on to that because there was never a better moment than that.

I wonder why death had to come for you so early. I wish I had told you that I loved you. But I know that you watch upon me from heaven. Your light shall forever glow in my eyes. I hope by now you know that I wanted to be with you. Am sorry I never told you how much you meant to me. But I know that eventually we shall be together once am there. I hope I will look you in the eye and say sorry for never letting you know.

Broken Mirror

Mirror on the wall,  I got my trust in you
All the other days, you always showed me the truth
This very minute, you lied to me
I now lost all trust in you.
Mirror on the wall, why you gotta lie

But before we get done,  I need one more thing
A thousand girls stand knocking on my door
I got no wits to choose the best
Mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of them all.

I AM DIFFERENT

I stand holding my little towel against my chest after that long refreshing bath. I am staring deep into the mirror. All I want to see this moment is more than what I usually see. The surrounding is so quiet I can almost hear my own heartbeat. Today after so many years, I come to terms with the truth. Into the mirror I see beauty. I can see a bright future, I can see a change and I can see a personality worth dying for. I can see a root from which greater generations shall grow. In the mirror, I can see more than just myself.

 

Why did it take so long to see the truth that lay naked before my eyes? Was I too blind to see or was I too adamant to admit. Well, this day I just can’t ignore the truth anymore. For the first time I feel lighter, I feel happier and braver. They say the truth shall set you free, yes, today I can finally find some truth out of this statement. I can never be like the rest of them. I can never be what everybody wants me to be. I can never live up to the expectations of them all. But there is something I can do. I can stand up and be myself. I can live to make tomorrow better than yesterday.

 

I am different. Unlike them that like beef, I do like chicken. Unlike them that fancy bananas, I fancy apples. Unlike them that love the color red, I love the color pink. Unlike those that fell on the straight path, I fell on the crooked path. I am a lover of those who are like me and that is what makes me different.

 

It doesn’t make me less human though. There is so much more to a person than just their sexuality. There is a difference between what a person does and who they are. As I make this declaration, I must admit that I am the happiest person today because I will sleep with no weight on my shoulders. I will sleep smiling because I finally know who I am. Meet me across the rainbow.